unfree

    Your eyes stare me down and what do I see?
I once yearned for you but I've learned life's lesson.
No more will I fall prostrate to you or let my head incline your way.
I cannot take the wound that it brings for I am a babe among wolves.
    There is a vampire in this pit.
    There is a rat scurrying about my feet.
My fingers claw at the dirt stained walls but these stones have no doors.

    Your face turns my way and who do I see?
Bubble bubble the spell has been cast and my hands shield my ears.
I convince myself that I am impervious but I think I am lying to me.
My form is helpless in your grasp but you don't even blink a lash.
    A ghost just spoke my name.
    A dream just became solid reality.
My struggle only serves to tighten the web and soon I am bound unmoving.

    Your arms hold me tight and where do I run?
A prisoner bound into dungeon tossed but sometimes you visit me.
Here and there my soul paces its cell and there is a window way up there.
My hands press my forehead and that is when I surrender to the vortex of you.
    I am friends with the moon.
    I have whispered words with the stars.
My will is cracked into sand and I must kneel at the beauty of your throne.
 
 
 
 

(+) and (-) are (=)

The Coward am I.
The child I am.
I am a peasant.
Am I your nightmare?

The Orphan are you.
The dazzler you are.
You are the dreamwish.
Are you my answer?

        The Symbiote are we.
        The lifeglow we are.
        We are the coilspark.
        Are we of oneblood?

The Pilgrim of Futility

        Can't find you oh and
            also myself.
        Misdirected and dazed and
            no arrow found.
        Deafness deadens noise and
            the savior sound.

Gone....................where are you??

        Can sense you near and
            your sweet smell.
        Reaching out and never touching and
            empty hands.
        Blindness binds sight and
            all dreamworld lands.

Refuge....................you have abandoned me!!

        Can't hear you sing and
            your gentle smile.
        Veil hiding and traps ensnaring and
            knees to the dirt.
        Devils dance shadows and
            the sickness hurt.

Temptress....................is my will my own??

        Can feel your footsteps and
            a sunbeam warm.
        Ignorance and unreality and
            unheeded petitions.
        Solitude seeks execution and
            demise soon nears.

Enslaver....................I wouldn't escape if I could!!

The Ballad of the Compass

Oh, God, which direction do I go?
Which pathway do I take?
    Do I venture into the cave?
    Or wander around in the woods?
    Take that dusty path over there?
    Maybe dive into this pit?
    Or just twiddle my thumbs right here?
            Somebody
            somebody
            help
            me.
                    (please?)

There's no beacon to point my way.
No "X marks the spot."
    I can see the four walls.
    But they are opaque.
    Something awaits outside.
    If only I could choose.
    The door my dream lies behind.
            Where
            is
            the
            key?
                    (lost?)

Are my wishes only clouds?
My visions mere fantasy?
    Am I just fooling myself?
    Delusional in my madness?
    When did this storm appear?
    Which direction is up?
    And who holds my meaning?
            I
            found
            the
            hidden.
                    (compass?)